
Yesterday, just before J.D.'s funeral I had a doctor's appointment. After measuring 2 1/2 weeks ahead, the doctor wanted me to come in for another sonogram just to make sure things were going okay with the baby. During the exam and sonogram, I kept referring to the baby as a "he" as I have done for a while now. Not only is it easier to say than she (how lazy is that?) but I was feeling like it was a boy. So I guess when the doctor passes by the boy parts he decided to show me. "And here are his testicles." Both the nurse and I looked at each other. I just smiled and she let the doctor know that we were not intending to find out the sex until birth. My poor doctor felt so so so bad. I was shocked but okay with it. And honestly, it just confirmed what I was feeling.
As many of you know we do not have many boys in our families so this is a blessing. With the recent loss of my cousin, J.D. and the timing of this slip up, I feel that it was God's work. My feelings on both of recent events are still unsettled but I take comfort in knowing that God has a bigger plan for all of us.
As many of you know we do not have many boys in our families so this is a blessing. With the recent loss of my cousin, J.D. and the timing of this slip up, I feel that it was God's work. My feelings on both of recent events are still unsettled but I take comfort in knowing that God has a bigger plan for all of us.










